9 months...
9 months ago i quit smoking menthols. I was up to a pack a day and it was ruining my budget and health. I quit cold turkey no help whatsoever. Im not having trouble with it this far down the road. Ive gained 30 pounds since then and im miserable....I also have severe panic and anxiety attacks. I feel like i sleep less now than i ever have before. Its still hard to drink coffee without my tobacco sometimes and im craving one soooo bad. Why all of the sudden is it this bad? I mean i understand that im probably over thinking it and thats why its worse than it really is like more mentally than physically...ugh i just want some advice before i go back to it. Im thinking slightly that maybe i just wasnt ready and now i think that if i start again i can just stop when im ready like i did before. I really dont believe that fully haha. I think if i go back to it i wont ever stop and im only 23...i smoked for 6 years. Even though there are certain things that are better like my breathing and not being smelly, there are also those feelings of lonleyness and cravings. All i know is ive been complaining so much and threatening my boyfriend and parents that im just gonna go get a pack and start again that ive lost my support system and now they're telling me to go get it over with. Im confused and lost and i just dont know what to do. Im so afraid of the judgement from other people and thats why i think i havent bought any which is good but bad because my nerves are getting worse because all i do it think about smoking all day everyday and its been like 2 weeks now and i cant get it outta my head!!! Heeeelllppp!!!!